I'm 45 years old, and I sometimes say "Sir" to males who are half my age

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well mr modern

i went into my relationship with the addict at 28 and came out of it at 58.

that was such a frigin shock.

I don't fel 58. I am shockedsometimes when i look in the mirrror, especially since i wear my heart of my face.

but the good thing about mr companion onthis trip is that i finally got mad at hearing how sick i am. i got so mad itmade me strong and i figued, i don't care if i can't do so much on my own.; I can just stay one place tilthe windter is over.

getting mad makes me sgtronger. thinking of ending life makes me not care so much about taking on bigger things.

I think you did the right thing about your sister.

like they say
it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

but then in truth it is usually not a temporary problem but one that cycles from better to worse and so on.

i first came on the box to get back into socializing. man it was rough cuz i set a lot of people agaist me and the mader i got the more provocative i became. some of it out of ignornace. but i did not back off until the cell was formed. even then i had trouble not going out to other threads and getting into trouble.

new people do't get hit so hard or hard at all theses dats. or maybe it is just my perspective.

back then, one poster came on new and was so trashed that i thought, i wonder how many people have killed themselves, comeing to the box and getting ruthlessly traqshed, with a party on their grave.

I emailed this person to see that they were surviving what happenend. Personal story so i won't continue, but my point is
you and i came here to try to get back into the ability to socialize. no one knows how sgtable or sensitive or on the edge a person might be, and i am so glad to see people greeted warmly now. I really do wonder if anyone has done themself in when their effort to join in were met with rejection and hostility.

lucky me, i made a good friend (who just got off the phne) here. we came in new at the same time and launched right in about trying to change the box to someting more hospitable.

I even started a thread called the book of rules. those were the rules the new people had to follow but knew nothing about. many a trap in that set up.

i was pretty obnoxious. I started a thread about suiciiiide and it got 1300
posts flamming me. People were taqlking about how selfish a person is who takes their life and leaves those who love them the suffer.

like they should stay alive in unbearable circumstances so as to keep someone else from feeling their own pain.

i agree with you. everyone has the right, and hopefully they might do what your sis did - call you. and if she were really determined, the next time she would not call.

so there you go mr hero,.

Yes, I'm still here.

modern

you can self report a post or thread. i have done it many times. they say don't do it, but unless you do it all the time, i don't think it is a problem.


yup kindred.

for a year or so i began to practice badger medicine from being in the box. in otherwords, don't mess with me aned i won't mess with you.

problem was i could dish it out but i could not take it so i had the cell to run to when i was getting in over my head. but all that waqs before the cell.

did you know most of a badger's diet is earthworms.?

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To me, every time someone might hurt my feelings on the Discussion Boards, I consider them to be helping to move me toward death. So, they are doing me a service if I finally choose to end my life.

For anyone who provides love and/or support to me on the board, they are helping me to remain alive, if I choose to remain alive.

So, due to my peculiar outlook, I win either way!

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